.I brought you the stars back home.

I'm on fire,
& n o w i think i'm ready to
BUST [a move]





checkkkk it out,
i'm ra-ra-ra rockin' steadyyyyyy...




mhm,
that's right.
i posted something.
Kinda.

So, I haven't updated in awhile.
I decided I would.

School is wrapping up in a good 2ish/3 weeks, I'm pretty stoked.
I'm ready to just get out of here.
Gahh.
Please gash my head open?
Please?

I'm changing majors to music performance & putting theater as my minor.
I didn't want to do it, but it's getting too hard to deal with.
I'm getting typecasted out the ass because I'm so small.
& I fit the little kid persona.
It's a bit ridiculous.
I don't deserve to stay in the same damn character.
I know I'm much better than that.

I haven't gotten any guidance whatsoever from my own department,
but yet, I have a vocal coach, & I'm over at the music building
& I have gotten so much more guidance than anyone from theater.
That's why I have decided music performance would be my best bet.

If I don't put theater as my minor,
it shall be creative writing.

I think that will make me so much more happy.
Cross your fingers that things will go better.

But anywhosit,
my room mate is incredibly lame.
I hate her.
She's a blond bitch.
Can't wait to get away from her for like, 3ish/4 months.
Stoked stoked stoked.

But, I mean, this experience hasn't all been bad.
I did come out of this freshman thing with a lot of really good friends.
A lot of education on theater.
A lot of work on plays.
& I found out my true calling, even though I already tried to avoid it.

But yeah.
That's me.
How's everybody else doing?

My play is tonight.
I'm excitedddddddddddd.
♥♥

[The girl that sits cross-legged in the center of a mosh pit
she pastes pictures of whores that lead to the center of the earth
& tends to bite her nails, seeing evidence feeble between the bones
soaking in oblivion, falling in obscurity
drowning in clouds too big to fit around our egotistical brains]

photographic memories blinding phosphorescent eyes
she's hypnotized by the interruption of the telephone romance
& chemistry put a kink in the lines when she said she loved him.

[love could be a killer of the teenage existence
but, for once in lives so delicate, so cruel
something bloomed in a mind so decrepit, so fucking languid
that it freezes between teeth, crunches up human emotions
& spits them out when the moment wasn't ever supposed to arrive

she lies in the puddles of the eruption she once called a brain
a brain that was once so weak, so emotionless
[it was now harder,better,faster,stronger]

& unlike any other lyrical lie that he uttered on his lips,
she spoke in stuttering, chattering phrases that broke his heart
[too bad it was way after he broke hers]




& it's amazing that I don't even know where this came from.♥

so...poem, anyone?

I'm in a fucking great mood.
It's amazing, I'm loving it.
A constant backassward slinky encounter.
I have this awesome bonding between these amazing friends.
I have this amazing boy, Ted.
I'm just really feeling this.
=D

wonderfreakingful.
i absolutely love this.

[These sidewalks are blackening
& maybe it just might be my head caving in,
but it seems like my thoughts are freezing.
& i don't know if i can use the remote anymore.]

Hey guys.
Things have changed.
Goddddd.

I've changed so much within the past few months.
Like, almost completely.

I have become this weird awkwardly eccentric
go past the lines mix matchy rocker chick that
says weird shit.

yeah. i know, you can say whatever you want,
but for me, that's a shift.

I have changed my hair color I don't know how many times
[not even in the right way]
& as my eyeliner gets thicker, my thoughts get worse.

somebody just get the fuck out of my head
& tell me what's eating at my soul.

you're the definition of perfection.
beautiful&amazing in every way.
[falling..]

i'm in 3 plays.
dating a boy named Matt.
got some new awesome friends.
& i'm quite in bliss. =]

I haven't updated in awhile, so I decided to at 2:38 a.m. instead of watching my usual
MTV.. but, I'll do that right after this, I suppose.

I leave for college in 2 days, so hopefully I will see all of you at the Glass Festival before I leave! =]
Just turn on a Paramore cd if you miss me too much. lol. =]

Anyway,

I just wanted to stop by & say hey. =]

I used to give up, give up
I had my fill of "love"
you give me something real
& I chose to feel

Baby, sweetheart:
We can live this way
or you can walk away

OHHHHHHH, we live on the line
we walk in perfect time
dancing to the beat
the beat of our hearts
It is so lovely
We kiss, we kiss
it's something like instant bliss

Get a move on, a move on
We have so much to live for
we could grow old together
or pause & fast forward

Baby, sweetheart:
We can live this way
or you can run away

OHHHHHHH, we live on the line
we walk in perfect time
dancing to the beat
the beat of our hearts
It is so lovely
We kiss, we kiss
it's something like instant bliss

Like instant bliss
OHHHHHHHH..
we kiss, we kiss
& it's something like instant bliss

and.. and.. ohhhh, we live on the line
we walk, we walk & it's in perfect time
dancing, rocking, singing, laughing
to the beat of our hearts
It's so lovely, outstanding, beautiful
& i kiss your soft lips, you kiss mine
we kiss, we kiss
It's something like..
It's kind of like..
It might be like..
It's kind of sort of maybe like instant bliss.

this picture makes me smile :)

your hands are the only ones i want to hold
♥

don't mess with me and my heart.
you just might pay for it in the end.

please just don't play with me
my paper heart will bleed.

Come on, let's dance
let's intertwine.
i'll be yours, if you'll be mine.

so, I'm pretty sure you make me a very happy girl.
and it makes me smile. :)

[screams]



♥
Faren.

I have best friends:


that I love very much
and wouldn't change for the world
and they also...


are way better than yours.



you pretty much know who you are.

if you don't....



Justin
Krystal
Kelly
Emily
Jessica
Felicia
Cherl
Cole
Kevin
Phebe

I don't respond well to intimidation... it makes me feel icky.